Hurt

"She never loved you, sweety."

Things were okay at first. Till those moments came, and I feel unwanted. Friends over me. Strangers over me. Who wouldnt hate being in that situation? I fought for us. I gave in everything. You wanted me at first. But why you did this to me? I realized that there were things that was my fault. But I tried to overcome those problems, just to be with you. I tried my best, to stop hurting you. I had friends guiding me all the way just to be the best for you. 

Part I

You told me your friend is playing with a boy's feelings. You felt sorry for the boy. You said he should deserve better. You hate your friend because you feel pity for that boy. You told me, and I listened. Hoping that I wont hurt you like your friend did to the boy. But I was confused, why do you back him up when the girl is your bestfriend. Because usually we would do anything to protect our friends. But you didnt. I felt a little bit jealous because you tried your best to defend the boy.

Part II

Your phone got confiscated. I waited for two weeks. You went online and I tried my best to have a chat with you. You told me you missed me. I was so touched. We only chat once in a while since I dont know when you can go online. And then, I saw you asking your friends to Skype together. I was down like no one ever was. Because, you once told me you want to Skype with me whenever you get the chance to. But you didnt. I was waiting for you, and you broke my heart like Im not important to you.

Part III

We were talking like usual. We talked and the conversation runs. It was okay, till you talked about a boy. You were fangirling over him. I acted like I didnt care, but deep down I was bleeding. Why do you have to tell me about this guy. You can fangirl about him with someone else but please, not with me. We fought about this, and I, as usual. Backs down and ending up forgiving you.

Part IV

You had camping at school. On our monthsary. I dont really mind, I just wanted you to have fun. So I gave you a day to enjoy it like you havent before. Then I got a text from you. You said you missed me. I feel loved. But then I suspected that something was not right. And I was right, you were down. You told me how them people make jokes out of you. I calmed you down. You said thanks. But later, you said you were touched because one of them said that youre beautiful. I kept quiet. I can only fake a smile.

Ive been hurting all this while. We talked and you said sorry. Your sorries are nothing to me, dear. Your sorry is cheap. Dont be sorry when youre not. You never loved me. You used me. I was just a toy. But pity you. You lost someone who really cares about you. Just hope your future wont hit you back in the face.

They said, people will only start noticing when youre gone. But too bad, Im already gone and she still havent noticed me.